I don't care

Tears flow freely,
My eyes downcast,
I watch the clouds roll in,
The sky dark and ominous,
I add to the puddles of the rain.

I am a vacuum,
My heart is a void,
The ground opens beneath my feet,
I toss my gaze to the sky
And am blinded by the sun through the clouds.

Hurt and confused,
I fall, tumbling off walls,
Pain in every limb -- searing, burning,
I scream out in agony, but no one hears,
Tears stream though the air.

I burn in fire,
But I don't care.
I'm broken beyond the point of feeling,
Tears fall, but I don't care.
I am alone, but I don't care.

I am dead.
I no longer exist.
I am stuck in a circle, doomed to repeat.
Doomed to repeat.
But I don't care.

  -- Bem Ajani Jones-Bey  01.19.98