I Will Not Give Up

I will not give up.
I will persevere.
I have no chance.
Yet I will continuse to fight.

I am a snowball in hell.
I am ice in the fire.
I am a mouse in the cat's mouth.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I cannot win.
I cannot survive.
I cannot finish.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I beat my head against the wall.
I am bloody, defeated, undone.
I am the lowest of the low.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I hear nothing but "no!".
I am drowning in the negative.
I hope in futility.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I am frustrated beyond belief.
I am thwarted at every turn.
I am enticed to give up.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I can only lose.
I can do nothing but fall.
I hit the ground hard, and cannot get up.
Yet I will contunue to fight.

I touch things and they break.
I get close and nothing's left.
I talk, and no one listens.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I dig my own grave.
I build my own coffin.
I nail the lid shut.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I am dead.
I no longer exist.
I know that no one cares.
Yet I will continue to fight.

I WILL NOT GIVE UP!

  -- Bem Ajani Jones-Bey   4.18.99